I'M DONE!!!

I had a long blog typed up laying it all out there. I've spent the past.....well while, being hurt, pissed, angry, disappointed, guarded, pissed (it's worth mentioning twice) and crazy protective of my family which has put me in kinda a funk......but through typing out my feelings, thoughts and personal choices God made some things very clear. I'm DONE!!!! (d-u-n-n....that's for you, Kati ;) Enough toxicity in my life.......I will share what God brought to my attention instead of my long rant(it was kinda an ugly journey to this point :)

1. God is in control, I'm not and if I give the enemy any wiggle room he'll wiggle right into my head and try to take over.
2. Life and people aren't always what you want them to be......but God is still in control.
3. There is always healing.....we just have to seek Him and be patient.
4. I have the verse I Corinthians 10:13 tattooed on my wrist for a reason! I should stop and remind myself of that when I am overwhelmed.
5. Josh'll be home soon....I need to focus on that and not let ANYTHING or anyone take away from that joy!
6. God has given MANY people the gift of writing.....I should read more! Thanks Kinome for suggesting an AWESOME book...it's rockin my world in a wonderful way!
7. I have family and friends who love me and understand me....they know what's up in my life and are here to help (I should really call ya'll more when I need to talk ;)
8. Did I mention Josh'll be home soon......sure, we'll have to adjust to life together and make some family decisions but WE get to do it together and I need to stop trying to carry the weight of it ALL on my own.....between God, Josh and I we should have things pretty well covered :)
9. Our little girl is happy, healthy (and sleeping like a princess). We are a family and nothing will change that.
10. Again, Josh will be home soon......I don't have to make any decisions on my own. He is a Godly man and will lead our family in such a way (boy, am I glad I'm the one who has the babies and not the one responsible for leading an entire family ;)

***My journey in dealing with "this" is far from over.....but God is taking it in a new direction and I can already feel relief and peace. Thanks to all who have covered it in prayer the past year, please continue to cover all involved in prayer***

Well after my late night phone call to mom, a good cry, my long rant (that I saved on my computer for further reflection but don't feel the need to share with the world) and my "Ten things learned" I am now ready for bed :) Off to join my sleeping princess and dream of our Daddy being here with us.......